The Old Testament reading in the daily office for this morning is Judges 13: 1- 15. This is the story of how the birth and purpose of Samson was revealed. I thought it quite interesting that the angel of the Lord appeared to the woman (we don't even know her name), the wife of Manoah, and gave the revelation. Even after Manoah prayed for God to reveal instructions on how to raise the child, God sent the answer to the woman. She had to go fetch her husband. I can't help but like that. It seems as though, every so often in the Scripture, God side-steps cultural norms.

Maybe it's sad that I like this so much. Does it reveal a deep longing for validation and recognition? Does this struggle between the genders stem from the fall of the human race?           

May 18, 2012

I was reading a brief sketch of Florence Nightingale's life. An excerpt  reminded me of some of our students at my school. :) 

"Then war broke out in the Crimea (in Russia, on the north edge of the Black Sea), and Sir Sidney Herbert, now Secretary of War, obtained permission for Florence to lead a group of 38 nurses there. Of these, 10 were Roman Catholic nuns, 14 were Anglican nuns, and the remaining 14 were "of no particular religion, unless one counts the worship of Bacchus." They found conditions appalling. Blankets were rotting in warehouses while the men did without, because no one had issued the proper forms for their distribution. The lavatories in the hospitals had no running water, and the latrines were tubs to be emptied by hand. But no one emptied them, since official regulations did not specify which department was responsible for doing so. The result was that the hospital had a foul stench that could be smelled for some distance outside its walls. Far more men were dying in hospitals of infection than of wounds. The chief concern of many of the Army doctors was that the nurses might usurp some of their authority. Florence gradually managed to win the doctors and other authorities over, and to reform hospital procedures, with spectacular results. Once the medical situation had ceased to be an acute problem, she turned her attention to other aspects of the soldiers' welfare. For example, most of them squandered all their pay on drink. She noted that there was no trustworthy way for them to send money home to their families, and she set up facilities for them to do so. First, she undertook to send money home herself for any soldier in the hospital that wanted it sent, and the soldiers brought in about 1000 pounds a month. She asked the authorities to set up an official service to do this, and they refused. By appealing to Queen Victoria herself, she overcame opposition to the idea, and the men sent home 71,000 pounds sterling in less than six months. She established with her own money a reading-room with tables for writing letters, and the men used it enthusiastically. She imported four schoolmasters to give lectures, and the halls were filled to overflowing. All this was done despite opposition from officers who said, 'The men are hopeless brutes. You cannot expect anything from them.'"

Sometimes we think about some of our students as being "hopeless brutes," and there may be some that are. But we don't know which ones they are (only time will tell that), so what can we do to solve problems, motivate students, and give them opportunities to be better? Nightingale assessed the real problems these men were facing that led to their irresponsible choices, and she worked to give them opportunities and control in their lives. What more can we do for our students who are squandering their resources and living irresponsibly? We have to do some things differently if we are going to be successful with our students, at least as evidenced by our OGT scores, (which doesn't tell the whole story, but is an important indicator).

I am an idealist I know, but I like to think about and talk about these kinds of questions. 

As I continued to think about the way God works to bring about justice in the world--seemingly slowly and mysteriously--my mind went to Sweetie, the baby that the WAR community is praying for. Sweetie is the child of a young woman, barely out of childhood herself, who is the victim of sex trafficking probably in India. Sweetie is what the rescue workers call this baby because she has no name and is held captive like an animal, tied to a post. Sweetie remains nameless and is denied loving care because her captors want her to grow up to be used in the sex trade, not to be a relational human being. My heart and mind wail out to God for her deliverance, and I wait and hope for the mercy of God. But at the same time, I know she is just one example of the cruelty and evil perpetuated on women and children throughout the world. And my soul cries out with the psalmist, "Oh Lord, how long shall the wicked, how long shall the wicked exult?" (Psalm 94:3) And the prophet Habakkuk complains, "Oh, Lord, how long shall I cry for help, and you will not hear? Or cry to you 'Violence!' and you will not save?" (Hab. 1:2)

Lord, have mercy.

Christ, have mercy.

Lord, have mercy.

Reading the Lenten passages in Exodus this morning reminded me that my sense of timing is so different from God's. The people of Israel waited for many years, languishing under the domination and abuse of the Egyptians, waiting for God's deliverance. It reminded me of African Americans suffering for 300 years under the cruel system of chattel slavery in North America. My human understanding screams, "Why?" Why did God wait so many years to bring deliverance to people who were crying out to Him? For some reason, God has chosen in most instances not to supernaturally intervene in situations of injustice, but does His work slowly and mysteriously, creating change in individuals and then societal systems to bring about justice. This is not something that I like or understand with my finite understanding of time and God's purposes, another situation in which I must simply trust God.

As I apply these thoughts to our current situation in a religious culture that seems to be oppressive, isolationist, and deforming (Shawn's word) to spiritual formation, my instinct cries out for immediate justice and reformation. However, God seems to be again bringing about change in gradual, sometimes almost imperceptible ways, that may outlast my life on earth. Though that may be the case and creates intense angst in my soul, I can have confidence that God is working and will accomplish His will, not only in His people, but in all the world. The will of the Father is clear in the gospel according to St. John chapter 13, verses 34-35--..."By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another." Again in the same gospel, chapter 17, verses 11-26--..."that they may be one, even as we are one...that they may all be one, just as you, Father, are in me, and I in you, that they also may be in us, so that the world may believe that you have sent me...that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me...that the love with which you have loved me may be in them, and I in them." Jesus repetitive emphasis on the unity of believers underscores the importance our Heavenly Father places on it. Saint Paul in the letter to the Ephesians elaborates on this theme and purpose of God when he speaks of God's love for the church, the bride of Christ--"Husbands love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her, that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, so that he might present the church to himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish" (chapter 5, verses 25-27). The church in North America cannot be described in those terms. We are fragmented and steeped in rebellion, opposed to the purposes of God in this regard. However, God's purposes will be accomplished, and I must believe that He is at work, purifying His bride and bringing her to love and unity, albeit not on my schedule, but His. The question for me is, "How can I cooperate with God to accomplish His purpose in my time on this earth?" Whatever the answer to that questions is, I know it must be by faith and in love.

Desiring the Kingdom

Reading Tim Gombis's post about desiring the Kingdom reminded me of my sin and selfishness. I want to desire the Kingdom for the right reasons, which include servant-hood and restoration.

Lenten Prayer

Lord, forgive me for my desire for comfort and ease. Forgive me for grasping my possessions. Help me to have a generous, loving heart, one that willingly shares and gives up for others. Strengthen me for the long obedience to which you have called me. Clear my mind of the clutter that obscures my view of you and your kingdom. Help me to live sacramentally. In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, amen.

We are waiting as others make decisions about our freedom.

Isaiah 40: 21-31 (Old Testament reading for 2/5/12)

Do you not know? Do you not hear? Has it not been told you from the beginning? Have you not understood from the foundations of the earth? It is he who sits above the circle of the earth, and its inhabitants are like grasshoppers; who stretches out the heavens like a curtain, and spreads them like a tent to dwell in; who brings princes to nothing, and makes the rulers of the earth as emptiness.

Scarcely are they planted, scarcely sown, scarcely has their stem taken root in the earth, when he blows on them, and they wither, and the tempest carries them off like stubble.

To whom then will you compare me, that I should be like him? Says the Holy One. Lift up your eyes on high and see: who created these? He who brings out their host by number, calling them all by name, by the greatness of his might, and because he is strong in power not one is missing.

Why do you say, O Jacob, and speak, O Israel, “My way is hidden from the LORD, and my right is disregarded by my God”? Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth, He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

Hallelujah!! What more needs to be said?

God speaks through "Blue Bloods"--As Grandpa said, May God's light shine through our family, and may we trust Him even when we don't understand.