http://www.aholyexperience.com/2011/11/when-compassion-becomes-a-gold-rush/

God revealed Himself and my sin through this story of a 15-year-old boy in the Amazon jungle. The heart of Christ is compassion, and if I am to be like Christ, my heart must be characterized by compassion, not self-preservation and comfort. The Holy Spirit, gently but firmly, put his finger on my sin. Back in November, as we were facing another round of our child’s confusion with reality, I made the witty comment to professional who helps us, “ I didn’t a sign up for this.” I am broken with the shame of that flippant statement. I did sign up for this, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I don’t have a glamorous story, but I have children who needed to be loved and brought to the Father. I have children who deserved the touch of Christ, deserved to have a home. Whatever pain I suffer is so little compared with what Christ suffered so that we all could be loved and belong. Thank You, Father, for the kick in the gut that the compassion of Christ brings. Forgive me for my lack of compassion, for any tinge of regret I sometimes feel for my choices, for ever doubting that I heard Your voice telling me to parent needy children, for one moment of thinking that, “I didn’t sign up for this.” Cleanse me and change me and allow me to be broken for you, a living sacrifice until my dying day.